There is both a lot going on here and nothing at all going on here. That combination drives me up the wall, stresses me out, and makes me extra bitchy to my parents, who I yelled at on the phone last night for no reason. (Honestly, I do not know why they put up with my crabby insolence.) Of course I felt horrible about it the second I hung up (as I do every time this happens), but I had a sinus headache and didn't feel like calling them back to apologize. Instead, I sat around feeling like an asshole and wondering why I can't be nicer to my parents, which made my headache worse.
The problem is that my work life is very uneven. I've got nothing to do for stretches of time, and then I suddenly have tons of jobs that need to be done in a short time. For example, on Tuesday I had lunch with a friend/colleague, then got better fitting bras. Wednesday was spent freaking out while perusing various blogs about MFA acceptances, then attending a bris. I played a lot of fake Scrabble on Facebook on both days, and also applied for some part-time jobs.
Last night I got a frantic call around 9 pm from the woman organizing the program that I touch in about things I should bring to my class this morning. Why people can't get their shit together in a timely fashion is beyond me. My class today, as it was last week and the Thursday prior to that, is from 9 am - 12:30 pm, which is a loooooong time to talk about budgeting. I'll drop off my headshots and "resume" to the agency, finally. (Since it was not ready before, I've made no progress with my quest to be a dead body on Law & Order. Hopefully submitting my materials will change that.) Then I have a meeting at 4:30 pm to talk about another round of training. Tomorrow, I'm meeting a friend/colleague for lunch to discuss a new consulting project that I hope will not pan out because it sucks, and then running over to my consulting gig to finally wrap that shit up since people finally decided to comply with my requests for information.
Next week? Nada. I am very much looking forward to meeting Mar on Tuesday and showing her and her mum around the city a bit. So, long story short, I am stressed and spazzing out.
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Uneveness sucks. I'd say more, but I haven't read long enough to know what it is you want - I think you're going to get an MFA and are doing stuff until that time?
ReplyDeleteSinus headaches suck even worse and I personally think if you kill someone while under the influence of one you should go free.
sorry you're stressing. today has been a very stressful day already for me too. blah! my credit score dropped 40 points since last month (wtf! i made way more than the minimum payment, g-dammit!), s wanted to stop by work because i dropped my phone in the car & i about lost it that he'd even think that was a good idea. who needs to keep their composure at work? certainly not me, crying here is apparently second nature now. oh, and not to freak you out, but apparently ioway's gettin' yet another icestorm next, oh, monday & tuesday when i'm supposed to go to nyc. i could really use something good happening to me right about now.
ReplyDeletealso, i completely understand you taking your frustration out on your parents. i do that once or twice a year & feel like a complete b#tch. lately i've been able to vent to s, but hey, no longer. wasn't i not going to talk about that anymore?
i just wanna go home.