It is scary how quickly I can be transported back to my high school years. A few months ago, I went to a Turkish restaurant on the Upper East Side with Brother-in-Law, BiLG, and Big O. As we sat down at our table, I found myself across the restaurant from my ex-boyfriend from high school. This was not the first time I ran into him in NYC. About 16 months prior, I was crossing 9th Avenue to the west side of the street when I noticed someone who looked like my ex crossing toward me. I started to mutter a pleasantry, but he looked the other way and started walking faster. So while I knew that he would never approach me, I immediately, I felt like I was going to vomit and wanted to hide. I could barely concentrate on the menu. Only when he left about 15 minutes later was I able to relax.
There’s no meaningful lesson or rant here. I just am completely amazed the power that people can have over others. I’m just glad that I am not that pathetic lovesick 16 year old any more. Sometimes it takes small moments like this to remind me just how far I have come, and how lucky I really am.
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We went to a Turkish restaurant for a family member's birthday several months ago and a middle age belly dancer came to our table. Her waist band had dollars bills stuffed half-way in, I think she probably "primed the pump" to let people know it was OK to stuff money there.
ReplyDeleteMaybe the old high school flame is stalking you.
Or maybe not (if your hair just bristled up).
How utterly satisfying. He couldn't face you?! This has great potential for the superficial layer of your life. What do old high school friends think? My theory, based on absolutely nothing, is that he was always mortified by that premature ejaculation thing and/or he had a major zit growing, and when he caught sight of you, he just couldn't bear it. Either way, you obviously scared the shit out of him. How excellent. I'm betting Jennifer had a similar experience with Brad just last week.
ReplyDeleteLOL...that is funny...how some people in our lives just have that kinda power over us and dont even know it. To this day, when I see a teacher, I duck and run, for fear of being caught ditching class...
ReplyDeleteYou've come a long way, baby! You're awesome, and we are so proud of you!!
ReplyDeleteI have created in my mind a whole map of New York, devoted solely to places I must avoid due to likeliness of running into: (a) people I have slept with and never want to see again (b) people I almost slept with and never want to see again or (c) people I once wanted to sleep with and am so mortified that I never want to see them again.
ReplyDeleteSo, if it's any consolation - you're not alone. I think people who say that these things no longer bother them are just LYING! :-)